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Wow. Crazy.

Laura, the stage manager, slipped on the ramp at Saturday night's show, breaking her ankle in two places. Surgery scheduled for Monday. She was such a consummate pro - no yelling, no cursing, nothing...she just sat patiently on the floor waiting for a ride to the hospital. Amazing woman. And she was backstage for Sunday's performance. Rock on, Laura.

My Brandon came to the show Saturday, as did my boy Glen - who has the most recognizable laugh in the world, and when I heard it, I actually broke character and smiled - which is why it's good to know when your friends are coming to the show. Also, I could swear I saw Judge B's law clerk in the second row, but I didn't catch him leaving. I'm sure I'll find out tomorrow.

Hahaha and then! (In a singsong voice) Bill and Tracy's for Burnout! Travis nipped his headache and made it, we all decided to crash the hospital and visit Laura (heading to the room two by two, as requested by staff, and making a nuisance of ourselves in the waiting room in the process), then Kyle and Billy abandoned the "just gonna head home" plan, Eric decided Blot would be okay for the night, and we all crashed. There was a fabulous story that I want so badly to tell all of you, but I think it's a little too incriminating for full Internet exposure, so just be sure to ask me about it later. Believe me, it's pretty well worth remembering.

Things are still kinda weird. I'm just along for the ride in my own life right now. And really kind of liking it.

Today's show was SICK!!! I can't believe it was a matinee. We were completely sold out. Everyone had zero energy because we were all exhausted, and several people were a complete emotional wreck. Jan had to be a little worried. The lights came up - I fell asleep under my blanket during my hiding phase - luckily someone kicked me accidentally and I woke up, or that could have been disastrous. I was actually a little bleary-eyed during "It's All The Same". And the show? AMAZING. Best single performance I've ever been a part of, I think. Kyle and I were so right there with each other, which is happening more and more lately. Something happened during The Abduction, too - I totally effing snapped and just became Aldonza completely. I hit my nose hard on Travis's shoulder, then he accidentally tore my skirt off early on and I had to fight to keep it up (which was perfect for the scene, as it turned out, and we've been asked to try to make it happen every night), and poor Andrew accidentally ripped off a portion of yet another of my toenails. (Seems to be his favourite thing to do). The scream at the end of my scene was completely sincere, bourne of frustration, and after applying my bruises and tattering my clothing, I went out and gave what I cannot bring myself to be ashamed to say felt like the most emotionally exhausting and fantastic performance of my entire life - I laid into Quixote with an immeasurably controlled vengeance in the pre-song dialogue. I sang, spit, and screamed my way through "Aldonza" to the point that Cathy later cried just talking about it. Billy started crying on my last line. When it was over, I actually physically collapsed - which I am supposed to do, but this time it just happened rather than me sinking to my knees - my breathing was ragged and I was near sobs. I can't believe that was even me. It seems obnoxious, but it doesn't even feel like it was me. I was so full of anger and venom that I didn't even know I had; I heard a voice, and it came from me, but it didn't sound like me. The death scene that followed felt incredible - just, the whole show. Amazing. It was like all of us took every bit of disappointment and joy and heartache and pain that we've had over the last month and poured it all into this one performance. I hope we can continue to be even better each time.

I love the Triumverate - so I have dubbed Kyle, Billy, and myself. We really do make a good team. Those boys complete me - there's no way I could stand up there and make any moment of this believable if it weren't for them.

I can't believe how well it's doing too, for Moonlight - the houses are completely packed out already. Jack Petro was there to review the show for the Villages paper on Saturday too - so hopefully that will be positive and we'll get more people. Even though it's really weird and uncomfortable, there is a lot of reward in the audience reaction afterward. I'm starting to really get a taste of what this could be like, and I love it. I am using this role as a gauge for how capable I would be of making a living...and I haven't determined whether I would be successful, but I know I'd be happy. As all hell.